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ok this post serve two purposes. one is to revive my blog. next is to share some self reflection that i've made. this was done with the comments given to me by the people around me.
sec1
1. mugger, crazy msg.
2. music? gimme a break, my practice time is crap at sec1.
3. non addictive gamer, shuffling between maplestory.rakion.halo
4. sports, not bad lah my badminton.

sec2
1. antimugging, crap msg.
2. viola, over-practiced.
3. game uhhhh, picked up dota and drilled by chaychoong who wants to save the viola section dominating dota regime?
4. sports, learnt basketball from hongkee -.- now not bad liao hor...

sec3
1. mugging with style. not pure mugging, but really absorbing everything written in notes.
2. viola, slightly over-practiced.
3. gaming, dota and counterstrike at least not that noob alr.
4. sports, re-picked up tennis which i havent played since like p4

so with these i've drafted THE PERFECT sec4 plan

sec4
1. mugging with style
2. viola, slightly over-praticed or even more.
3. gaming, win the viola sec4 trio in dota, continue improving cs.
4. Master at least these 4 sports: Badminton Tennis Basketball Soccer

i hope it works out though =D



sometimes, winning is everything
cn

yay triple test day over -.-
viola exam next tuesday wahahaha. this is the first music exam im taking and its a good chance to trash people.
im trying to improve the aural part of the exam but dunnoe how.
thanks for those friends who had been at my side when im so low. you're right, im a tennis player, and no matter how hard i try or how good i am in other areas, no one can see it. even if people do, they deny it.

I'll prove my skills, just wait and see,
cn

okay, its time to sum up about the -fairness- arguement.

first things first, wads done cant be undone. once choices had been made, they cant be changed. if u made the right one, live with it happily. if not, face ur conscience's torment or wadsoever. put urself in other people's shoe. think about this...it's only when one puts in effort then he'll feel so much. after staring at my ceiling for two hours last night, i came up with my conclusion. perhaps i just need a new environment, where skills and efforts can be summarized by just matches, competitions. and the best place i can tink of, is the tennis court. so from now on, i'll dao all these stuff about unfairness. because i know im good, and i dunnid u to tell me if i am. CASE CLOSED.

next, i need to help a few friends from npcc. same problem, same result. let me gv u an analogy. Guy A and B is 2 ranks higher than C. but C gets a position higher than A and B. and there's no reasons given of why this choice is made. A and B were angry, so they isolated C. of course i can understand how A and B feel, but wad can i say to them? after some tinking, i've came out with this:
A and B, u merely loss a recognition of ur rank/skills/etc.
but C lost the most valuable possesions of mankind, his friends.
Is it worth it?

i've already convinced myself that its not my loss, but others. i hope these 3 lines will help u guys.

Do what u tink is right,
cn