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Hah. Spent the whole day talking on msn. Started talking about life after school reopens. I can totally imagine it now. It's not really the studying/no games part that bothers me. It's just that, during school days, there will be alot more fan2 nao3 like sudden popup of problems. But still, that's life isn't it. By adapting to the situations, I've grown. I used to hate tests and exams, but come to think of it, it marks us out, and show us where we stand. It's for winners to rejoice, that their efforts have shown. It's also a time for those who didn't win to reflect, and work harder. I'll change my viewpoint now. Exams and the school is a fiend, not a foe.

Anyway, zicong commented on my goals for '09, "wah you quite powderful xia, msg <1.5, snyo, napfa gold, syf goldwithhons. nobbad, liddat every part of your life become zhai liao lor". Haha, I know that the goals I set are not easy to fulfil.

But I believe that Perfection Is Achievable

The goals in the previous post are just the SERIOUS ones. Now I shall set the not so serious ones.

1. Stop dao-ing people.
2. Smile alot alot alot alot more :)
3. Don't touch computer games AT ALL.
4. FOCUS
5. Ignore all the unhappy stuff in life.
6. Stay emotionally strong.
7. Be more determined.
8. Never stop trying until I get it right, but don't neglect friends.
9. Be brave, don't be scared of anything unnecessarily.
10. Don't be too serious all the time, there's something in life called happiness.

I'm the world's best predator

I'm really looking forward to jc. But I would have to get through sec4 first. Rather than me looking at it as a chore, why not face it, and make it a memorable year? Although I can't bear to end my holiday life yet, I must admit, I had enough fun this holiday, I'm contented. Now it's time for school =D

& with every smile, every glance, you make me fall in love.
cn

Heh. Internet connection got cut off since sunday coz someone brought my modem to office. Finally got it back. Well, it's suppose to be a form of punishment but i can live as well without the internet. I dont need anything to live on.

You thought I couldn't live without it
But in these three days
I proved you very wrong
I can do without it
You cannot win me

Anyway, goals for next year.
1. MSG<1.5
2. Max ACE by june hols :)
3. Start eoys revision in june
4. Put effort into homework
5. Distinction for viola exam
6. Get into SNYO/OMM
7. Gold with honours for strings SYF
8. Gold for napfa
9. Improve in badminton, tennis, basketball, soccer
10. Have outings with friends in both term time and holidays

Wah...abit steep, but worth a try. No, I'm going to meet it :) Okay, next is to draft up my timetable.

I may be a vampire
But I'm a man
I have human instincts
They may be buried deep
But they're there

Ah...It'd been more than a week, I still cant get over twilight<3 Waiting for the follow-up series to come up =D Not going to play comp games next year, that means i'll be able to find time to go out with friends.

& you can bet on it,
cn

Wah another day at home. What can I say. But nvm lorh, this is going to end next friday ;D I'm trying so hard to keep myself busy. Maybe school can do the job for me.

What if I'm not the superhero
What if I'm the bad guy

Maybe all I would ever care about, is my pride. Holiday's ending, but I'm not feeling sad. Don't know what's happening.

You said you'd never let go...
...you lied
cn

Christmas was spent at home alone, watching topgun :) Seriously, this was one of the few movies that left me in deep thoughts. In a fighter pilot academy, fighting to be the best & to win the topgun award. The main character fell into a state of despair when his flight partner/best friend died in one of the practical lessons. It's only after some time that he got himself back on track. Then in a real-time fighting scenario he suddenly go into a state of loss. Maybe the death of his best friend gave him a phobia of engaging. Thus, he pulled out suddenly and left the other jet fighting alone. But images of his best friend flashed through in his mind. That gave him confidence to re-engage and tada he pwned ;D
This movie taught me that:

Friends are forever
And I'll treasure every single one of them
Rather than regret when I've lost them

Ultimately
I fought for myself
And I'm going to continue fighting
Fighting to be the best
So that I will -never- let myself down

They say, even heroes knows when to be scared
Yeah, sometimes I'm scared
But I'm not going to let my fear lead me
I choose where I want to go

& now I know
I want it that way

This is one of the few movies where friendship is more than anything else in the world. No, the universe :)

Hold me tonight, like an angel in the sky.
cn

Went to shop at plaza sing today xD Trying to help zicong spend off his vouchers but end up buying nothing haha~! Got the necklace I want at 77th street ;D
I think I unintentionally hurt some people in my process of fighting to be the best >.< Sorry.

I hold no grudges against you
The only reason why I'm fighting you is because
You pointed your blade at my pride

Well, to me, life's all about competition. Am I wrong? Aiya, I said I will dao all these sad things liao ^^ 2009 is coming, hope it'll be a fruitful year haha! No idea wad christmas this year would be like for me. Will it be just stoning in front of the comp at home? Or will I be off having fun with my cousins? Seriously, I miss the times when the wholeeeeeeeeeeee BIG family gathers together >.< Will it ever come back? And where are my christmas presentsssssssssssss!

This is really imba remix of qingtian on piano haha. If only I learn the piano, then I would be able to play it >.<

Hey, you had never been merely pretty ;D
cn

Went to the combined strings outing today. Watched yesman. Ate at macs. Camped in arcade. I love street racing :) Can't stop thinking about it since i watched tokyo drift haha! Feels like I'm wasting my holiday away >< Good times always past so fast ;D

When I asked myself what & why do I race for
I thought that I race to prove to people that I'm faster than them
Wait, I think I'm wrong
I race to prove to -you- that I'm faster than others

Sorry, but I guess I'm winning this :)
cn

Watched twilight at jp today xD Super meaningful show. Maybe to some people it's nothing but a love story. Must be able to read in between the lines and think out of the box lorh. Because,
Some things can't be seen, they can only be felt.
Haha i guess it's the tagline that interest me at first.
When u can live forever
What do u live for?

Haha just got a new laptop today. Posting with it now xD

Dont wanna hear you sayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~!
Aint nothing but a mistake~!

omg lah im super addicted to this song, cant stop singing haha!

well...today was spent at expo's comp exhibition. really had fun!



& maybe we're just, accidentally in love.
cn

Heh
Went to sec4s chalet on wed and came back ytd. Suppose to be today check out larh but no one wan sleepover liao. Played soccer there, then slacked off with cards and BBQ! Set out for night cycling at around 11.30pm and came back at around 4am. After all the bathing and stuff, played truth or truth. Getting people EXPOSED is fun. Next day we went to return bike then had lunch. Most people left by then. Me Zicong Alvin Xiongchen went escape with the complimentary tickets (if not waste larh). Family Coaster was superrr diao =.=, flipper also. Pirate ship is like a physics practical session, shows me how strong inertia can be in the air. Haunted house was a NIGHTMARE. I never want to step into that haunted house again larh, was being a coward hiding behind alvin, while zicong tanked all the damage and lead the way. Although din get to play go cart but still <3333

Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Haha new blog song! Have to move on in life right!!

I think I miss you loads <3

No matter the distance, I want you to know.
That deep down inside me, you're my desire.
cn

After thinking for so long.
Maybe it's easier to be a loser than to be a winner.
A winner has to worry if he get's recognised or not.
A loser don't have to.
A winner can't stand losing.
A loser is happy to win but don't mind losing either.

I'm sorry but it's just that.
I hate losing when I've won.

This is what happens when the line between winning and losing is not clear cut.
It confuses winners with losers.
How nice would it be.
If everyone knows who are the winners in this world.
And who are the losers.
Then winners would not have so much problems to face.
When losers have to face none.
Is this fair.
When after u've won u still have to solve all these problems.

And maybe this is why.
Winners are not always happy people.

Yes, I've won.
But I don't feel happy.
Because I'm losing.

Sorry I guess I just have no one else to rant so >.<
Because now,
I'm alone.

I hate losing when I've won,
cn

haha meeting with fbr at 3pm
After Action Review 0.o
Dinner at pizza hut haha
full of jokes

why are people saying this is an end or wad...
there's no end, and will never have one
FBR & Violas 4ever

It's this song playing again.
The same song that I've heard after combined camp in '06 and '07
Maybe it's just my mood
Or that I'm just feeling
Emo.

刮风这天我试过握着你手
但偏偏雨渐渐大到我看你不见　
还要多久我才能在你身边　
等到放晴的那天　
也许我会比较好一点

从前从前有个人爱你很久　
但偏偏风渐渐把距离吹得好远
好不容易又能再多爱一天　
但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜

Maybe one day when I'm brave enough.
Brave enough to tell you those three words.
I can stop listening to this song.

What we have is worth fighting for.
I will fight. Will you?
cn

Sul Ponticello
The friendships that we've forged, will not end tonight.
The concert is over.
This is really A Night To Remember.
Only friendship will bind us together now.
Let's have trust in our friendship.
It's strong, I can feel it.

FBR & Violas are MORE THAN LOVE~!
YES MORE!
ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT MORE!

Some things in my life just can't be let go of, just like you.
cn

Viola outing yesterday was love =)
started off at vivo with me being late =.=
then we took monorail to sentosa beach. dunnoe which one to go so random went siloso beach haha.
played frisbee in front of the hotel (forgot wad it's called, shangarila or smthg).
and everyone is just so enthusiastic xD
although jiaquan was sick and cant attend, my two sec1s hancheng and aloysius mia, prisca was at church camp and cant attend.

This is just one of those days I can NEVER forget =]
<3 fbr & violas

No matter what happens, you'll always be my baby.
cn

ah camp over le i really very low ><
Just cut hair today =) this hairstylist seriously rocks la.
although it's short now, it's definitely much nicer than before.
i'm missing the camp loads now!

You're my universe. You're my sky. You're that star in my life.
cn

The 3days camp is over, but our friendship will go on, forever. :)
In the process of planning the camp & the camp itself, I sure made many new friends.
I must say that preparing for this camp was tough, but looking back, it's worth the effort.
I was high-ing in the morning. Or rather, saying I'm high is just a way to keep myself from being low. But now it failed me. By the afternoon I can't help it but to be low le >.<

hciso-nyse camp was <33333333333333333333333

But all of these, are not over yet =) concert is coming hehe
MUST HAVE FBR OUTING AND VIOLA OUTING OK.

I can be everything in your world, just like how you can be anything in my world.
cn

I'm cold, but doesn't mean I can't flare.