Wake Up, My Freedom.

♥ It's here.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

11:44 PM

7 tests coming up in the next 3 weeks. Ahh, no turning back right? So I'll... face it.

You're the fire burning in me ;D
cn

♥ Game on ;]

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

11:36 PM

Ahhhh school again. Did homework whole day lah. Looked at calendar and realised time is running short. Tests are close. Stress Stress Stress Stress! After CNY it seems like, there's nothing to look forward to alr. Thought for a long long time and found the next thing to look forward to: End Of Class Tests And March Strings Camp! I really wonder how long my drive will last >< Please, don't falter.

Fated,
cn

♥ Enough. I'm not obliged to fight someone who cannot fight anymore.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

9:31 PM

CNY...how disappointing. Went to grandma's house, thought it would be fun. Wanted to play soccer at lobby but realised that there's no soccer ball. Played soccer with crushed paper in grandma's room. Second day of CNY was spent watching independence day at home. Yes I know it's boring and sad but there's no where else to go.

Perhaps only time will tell
If this feeling between us is true

Ahhhh. Totally not into the mood for school. Nevermind, shall use tomorrow to 'tune' to school mode ;D

Because your everything just seems to draw me in,
cn

♥ You make me feel so warm, yet so cold >.<

Sunday, January 25, 2009

8:15 PM

mmmhmmm CNY eve should be fun and exciting. But I camped at home and watched initial d alone =.= Anyway, zicong and jared will be joining viola section! Welcome ;D Perhaps this is the only happy thing that happened today. Feeling empty :x

It feels like
There's someone/something
That I desperately need to find
That something needs to be done
This sense of urgency
Without knowing what needs to be done
It's just like a race without a finishing line

Don't know. Don't know. Don't know. Don't know.

Style. Glamour.
cn

♥ Then bring it.

12:29 AM

Thursday's steamboat dinner with 4O1 was quite enjoyable. Finally had my first prawn and crabmeat :x but still...the place is abit crammed up and stuffy. Friday's CNY celebration was quite boring. Had practice + instrument check + sectionals by dr yeo. Overstrained my legs during soccer >< maybe the way I shoot puts too much pressure on my legs. Went out with austin on saturday(okay i can't use today anymore since it's passed 12). Watched saw 2 (sorry I lag -.-) and quarantine at eugene's house. Tired. Hope the remaining holidays will be fun!

You're not like anyone I've ever known
You fascinate me

Trust me, that whenever I take your hand, you will never get lost.
cn

♥ Fine, I'm a coward that is.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

11:07 PM

Ahhhh. Went to IMM giant to shop for CNY foods. Fried stuff, drinks, prawns :x and etc. Then went home and attempted to mug/do ace. CNY's nearing, excited ;D

It's only after I missed the chance
Then I realise
我们的故事真难忘
太多的回忆和希望
Will I still have
Another chance

School again...but this week is not that tedious :P

But I don't know if I'm right. Make me sure ;]
cn

♥ Complicated

Saturday, January 17, 2009

11:25 PM

Ah...woke up and realised half the day was already gone >< started doing homework. Tried reading up for bio and was half way through but realised I couldn't take it anymore.

Call me selfish
I don't care
As long as there's a chance
I'll shoot
Just because I don't pass
Doesn't mean I'm not doing the team any good
Scoring is all that I lust
I can win this myself

Nevermind. Going to try to read up on geog tmr :x Don't need to work so hard until CNY's over heh.

Because I won't hesitate anymore,
cn

♥ Freedom ;]

Friday, January 16, 2009

10:47 PM

Omg maths test today was fantastic lah! Love binomial theorem :) Finally can slow down my pace, really felt relieved after maths test. Cant even concentrate during lessons after maths test coz too high le!

Rehearsals was sectionals with dr yeo, super fun lah!

Perhaps what hurts most
Is being so close

After studying so hard, and after doing this test, I feel that, it's worth the effort ;D

Because my heart is wherever you are,
cn

♥ Next week's harder than last.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

11:01 PM

Argh. Weekends also so busy. Didn't get to go out. Cip on Saturday.

I don't have another choice
All that I can do
Is to keep going

Geog pop quiz tmr. Maths test on friday. This week shall be a bang ;D

I wish that I could hold your hand in mine,
cn

♥ Trust me.

Friday, January 9, 2009

11:33 PM

A really busy week, but I'm satisfied and happy :) Many things happened this week, happy ones and sad ones. Ah I tink I need a haircut, wanted some changes but got rejected + get scolded by ... (dont need me to say liao lah). Really very angry now. Seriously, I always try so hard to reason with you. But look at urself, u're just being, unreasonable.

You always thought I'm still a p6 kid
But I've grown, I've changed
So much that you won't even recognise me when you know it
But you didn't notice it
Not at all

I'd always gave in to you, but not this time. I'm not going to oblige to what I think isnt good to me anymore. It's a matter of pride and dignity. And don't forget what I've said, You Cannot Win Me.

Ahhh maths test next friday, so far yet so closed eh. So busy nowadays, just have to jiayou hah!

& you're the reason behind my drive,
cn

♥ Just give me, that one more hint ;D

Sunday, January 4, 2009

11:07 PM

Went shopping for cny clothes this morning (my morning is a normal person's afternoon). went vivo to hunt, finally found a black shirt that I want at zara :) Then went adidas at jp to get an adidas jersey coz cny not supposed to wear black ><

& in the midst of this storm
You made me smile ;]
No one else can do it
Only you

School starting again tomorrow =D Had enough rest + fun this weekend, I'm ready. Let's go!

You made me feel loved,
cn

♥ You're like a dream come true ;D

12:03 AM

Woke up at 11+, ate breakfast. Started reading up, did some practice questions. And went to OMM concert at night. Quite nice other than a little bit of error here and there. Gary CC Zhichao Runxian Hanyi were there too :)

It's okay
Love will eventually come back
We will make it

Ahh. Busy Busy Busy >< I hope Im not stretching myself too much. Even if Im, I don't care, I'm going to break the limit.

All I want to do is be with you,
cn

♥ Nice start, but I'm going faster.

Friday, January 2, 2009

11:12 PM

First day of school! I think I din regret for not ponning today :) Went to class in the morning and got a good seat, beside jingyao. Recess(there was two ;D) was eating at canteen & finding out secrets of my in-class deskpartner. Got physics assignment(cant print during hols :x) and chemistry revision worksheet(12 questions of chemical calculations almost killed me). Lunch was spent eating with zicong and alvin at poolside. Strings exco meeting from 2.30~3.30. Waited a while for my tix to OMM's concert tomorrow night xD Practice some random violin pieces while waiting for my dad. Ok wait, I'm a violist. Din bring viola mah. Went home; bath; do homework; dinner; do homework while watching tv. Quite alot of work today, but I'm satisfied with how much I've done today.

Doesn't even matter
How hard I try

Okay, end of one day. Ready for another ;]

Now that you're gone;
cn

♥ It's mind over matter.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

9:31 PM

FBR died on 1/1/09 - 12.12 am. I don't understand. We don't want it to die. Why must we kill it? I wasn't hit badly, but I know people like alvin felt alot. It's for greater good? Look, it's mind over matter. It's how you think that counts. Rather than see it as an obstacle, why not see it as something that bind us together as friends. I thought FBR will have a weekly/monthly mass convo and outing. All the plans and promise that we've made, where are they now? What's left? They say we'll keep those lovely memories.

But don't you understand
Memories ain't everything
You can't steal the bonds that we share

Nevermind, it's already done. I did not abandon you. You abandoned me. And like I said, I don't need anything to live on. I'm going to fight very hard alone for myself now. It's okay, I don't feel anything. Just feeling numb.

First day of school tomorrow, but no lesson lah sian. Just one thing to say to myself.

Don't mess up

Ready for war, again.
cn