Wake Up, My Freedom.

所有输掉的, 我都会把它们赢回来.

2010-09-29T22:16:00.002+08:00

forget about feelings
forget about those trying so hard to compete
我要赢的, 是我自己.

oh god please show me the way

2010-08-07T23:10:00.002+08:00

what do i do now? when everything in life is going all wrong, when everyone around makes me feel like trash, when i flunked everything this term, when home is giving me more problems than any other place.

i dont understand, i try so hard and this is where i end up? while others dont even have to put up a fight and everything's theirs.

i seem to be the only one alive in this world.

oh god please show me the way, please tell me what do i do now, please show me this life isnt just a meaningless struggle.

sigh

2010-07-26T20:41:00.002+08:00

viola exammmmmmm~! i dont even know if im really stressed/scared over it, or am i just using it as an excuse to run away from everything. to those close friends who stayed by me all along through my worsts and cheered me on, i love y'all loads :)! and to those who abbandoned me when i need u most, u obviously dont deserve me D: im going through hell now & i can give up on anything, but i will never give up on myself :D so GO CN!

& when i walk away, i'll never turn back again
i wont come back to u, anymore

i'm this inconsistent?

2010-07-25T12:49:00.003+08:00

where did the feel go

[/edit]
A thousand words couldn't bring you back
I know because I've tried
Neither could a thousand tears
I know because I've cried
You left behind a broken heart and happy memories too
But I never wanted memories
I only wanted you

don't look at me like that, i'll fall for ♡ :)

2010-01-23T23:55:00.003+08:00

hciso rehearsals yesterday, hcse and ys rehearsals today :D hciso's combined concert with hk orchestra in 1 week time!

how? ): why are we strangers again

confused

2010-01-21T19:07:00.003+08:00

Super epic physics lesson. There's this experiment where we have to construct a tube with 4 knots, the knots have to be connected in certain way. After that we'll have to present our models, so when one of the groups go up and present. This guy pulled one of the string and the entire thing came off! Omg lah cannot stop laughing when I 'replay' that instant in my head.

don't you know
everytime you look at me with those glittering eyes
i'm speechless because
i'm already melting inside

Ah damn.

2010-01-19T18:51:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I started having problems with people again. Damn D: From today onwards, I will not care about what and how other people are like anymore. Rather than getting pissed and start hating people, I just have to ensure that I'm good, because that's all that matters.

Faith

TURNING IN EARLY :)

2010-01-17T22:36:00.002+08:00

Omg so satisfied with today's viola practice :) School tomorrow, I've got no idea how it'll be like. Fun or dreadful?

Once competitiveness kicks in
Happiness no longer exists

2nd post with hp ;D

2010-01-17T00:23:00.002+08:00

Ah just saw the schedule for first 2 weeks of school :x starting to feel stress alr. After these 2 weeks it'll be orientation yay :) super look forward to it haha. Haven't come up with my new year resolutions yet, it's still early and I haven't started school in jc so don't know how it works there, so how to come up with those resolutions. In any case, going to delete Warcraft tmr, my body seems to reject it once school starts, now alr no mood play le. Ahwell, just have to see how it goes on monday.

Excitement

2010-01-16T01:14:00.002+08:00

Blogging with hp since I alr switched off my comp :x Attended high school strings today, then went for dinner with hciso at currywok, ended up seeing a super big SCANDAL! Hcse rehearsals tmr. School reopens on Monday, anticipation & dread, mixed feelings heh.

everything changed

2010-01-13T01:02:00.002+08:00

b3 for higher chinese olvls :x very happy that I dont have to take h1 chinese in jc, but it wasnt all that I wanted. Reworking my viola playing now, ohwell today really made me realise that I still have so much room for improvement. Practise Practise Practise! :D

Was it something I said
Or something I never did

:x

2010-01-11T00:50:00.002+08:00

olvls chinese results tomorrow D: !!

The world is going to throw us a million reasons why this isn't going to work between us
But I'm armed with one reason why it will

Who needs the world
When I've got you

ﺕ

2010-01-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

But my god it's so beautiful when she smiles :)

i melt

2010-01-09T00:07:00.002+08:00

最猛的是我有傻傻的勇气
如果没有奇迹我创造一个给你
好的坏的都是我的要撑到底
你让我相信我可以

night

2010-01-08T01:46:00.002+08:00

Even under those glaring stars
I feel so dark
Light comes
& I'm all alone

绝对无敌

2010-01-05T19:37:00.002+08:00

你说得没错
一直以来我的确对你有着一种很深的恐惧
但现在的我
已经找到消除这份恐惧的方法
那就是
面对你

;

2009-12-24T00:59:00.001+08:00

forever your noob :)

/

2009-11-28T01:11:00.002+08:00

you wonder why i don't talk to you anymore
& please believe me when i say it's not that i don't want to
it's just that everything i want to say
i can't tell you anymore
♥

childish

2009-11-20T00:57:00.002+08:00

Irrational & immature,
For goodness sake,
Grow up.

Tsk

2009-11-13T11:18:00.002+08:00

"Don't solo already lah!"
I freaking hate it, when u can't even get the ball into the goal.

Last fight

2009-11-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

Let's go!

Oh can't you see it baby, you've got me going crazy :)

2009-11-08T10:48:00.001+08:00

How can we say forever?

Never let go :)

2009-11-04T12:42:00.002+08:00

Of holding hands and red bouquets
Twilight trimmed in purple haze
Laughing eyes and simple ways
Quiet nights and gentle days
With you :)

STRESS

2009-10-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

Came back from orchestra practice
Tired
Did 3 theory past year papers
Going to plop onto bed now

Just so hard

2009-10-26T23:31:00.002+08:00

Did music theory work since I reached home till evening
Went for soccer downstairs
Finished up with theory and did the 3 chinese essays

This fool :)

2009-10-24T23:22:00.003+08:00

Everytime I look at you
I try to read your heart
I keep getting a different feeling
I really don't know
If you like me, hurry and tell me
Why are you making me feel so anxious
This fool

~

2009-10-23T00:16:00.001+08:00

& when we don't screw up our lives
Our lives screw us up

Mixed feelings

2009-10-21T20:06:00.003+08:00

Feel good that I did better as compared to others?
Or feel bad because this is worst than how I normally perform?

It's over :D

2009-10-16T22:35:00.000+08:00

Eoys are over yeahhhhhhhhh

Keep the faith

2009-10-10T17:24:00.001+08:00

Whether triumph or defeat
Keep the faith

Just a little more to the finishing line, just a little more :)

2009-10-09T13:34:00.003+08:00

Ohman, this week felt like a month ._. and yesterday was the most stressful day of my life. Freaking staring at the clock knowing I cant finish revising. In the end just looked through the notes. Didnt even have the appetite to eat lah, just eat a few spoonful and go back to mugging le. But hey! Today's friday, and exams are ending in a weeks time. It's a well deserved break, so...SLACK! It's really heartwarming, to have friends who keeps you calm when u're panicking the night before coz u cant finish revision, and to keep your stress far far away :)

We're all in this together
Once we know
That we are
We're all stars
And we see that

We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand
Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true

Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, were there for each other every time
Together together come on lets do this right

Now

2009-10-04T20:10:00.000+08:00

But we're darn strong
So we'll survive :)

Hyped!

2009-10-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

Only god can judge me

This sense of satisfaction; no other words can describe :)

2009-10-02T10:07:00.003+08:00

Fight to the last :)

Exams starting tomorrow!

2009-09-30T15:08:00.001+08:00

It's tough
But that's what make this war worth fighting :)

This is just crazy

2009-09-26T17:40:00.002+08:00

Got to hang on D:
& in 3 weeks time everything will be over

It's not about the words we say, the things we do; But looking into your eyes and just know :)

2009-09-23T14:45:00.003+08:00

Fatigue builds up as the days passed
But it's not enough to kill us :D

Dreams

2009-09-21T14:31:00.000+08:00

& I found my reason to fight
It's you, baby :)

Tongue Tied

2009-09-19T09:44:00.003+08:00

First week of school over, two weeks more left in high school D: Slack revision lessons and poof! one week gone. Exams inching closer and closer, this is the last chance to get it right :x

Bright, cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday

Now

2009-09-14T22:53:00.000+08:00

Runner forever :)

Let's go :)

2009-09-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

Faith

so you just won't tell me those words

2009-09-11T11:14:00.002+08:00

Forget it
What hurt most is not walking away
But knowing that if I disappear from this world one day
You wouldn't even
Care

Wishes upon a wishing star

2009-09-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

Had a great birthday :) Thanks to those who wished me happy bday in person, sms and facebook! Really appreciated that! Birthday hat-trick during class soccer heh, followed by lunch with danieltai and cake at night ;D

So you forgot
Maybe I'm just
Insignificant

Last lap of our last race in high school

2009-09-08T19:50:00.004+08:00

Deleted everything yesterday
& now, in a state of loss
But at the cost of losing those memories
It's back, the drive you once gave me :)

Sometimes the hardest things to say are the things that really matter

2009-09-07T15:26:00.002+08:00

I started off with you
As the reason behind my drive
But as I get stronger
All that filled my mind was awards
And perhaps that is why
I screwed up this time

fbr bbq last night. alwyn, jonvoon, runxian, zicong, zhihao and me got so engrossed in bball that we totally daoed the others around the bbq pit D:

Wonder if you will remember

Faith is reason grown courageous

2009-09-02T22:11:00.002+08:00

Spa 3 for chemistry and physics today, bio one's tomorrow :)
Hope I don't ggfied heh

Distance never really separates two hearts;
That cared.

I'm sorry for running away like this

2009-08-31T21:09:00.002+08:00

so in other words; you take my
breath away

Back from Hainan

2009-08-30T22:06:00.004+08:00

Even with the hot weather, and the lower level of development
The scenery, and the people
Were definitely worth the 8 days stay

In the gutter

2009-08-18T17:26:00.000+08:00

& just when I thought that the worst term has past
Another came

Highs and lows

2009-08-09T22:52:00.002+08:00

Ohman yesterday was love :] Course in the morning and wedding dinner in the evening pwns! So fun that I can't summarize (they call it lazy) in a few words.

It's a race against time D:

2009-08-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

Information overload.

Form

2009-08-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

Composure;
Once lost, so is the game.

Sleepy afternoons :(

2009-08-05T22:07:00.001+08:00

Nonchalant.

D:

2009-08-04T20:39:00.001+08:00

What's wrong with maths?
Or is something just wrong with me ><

Damn.

2009-08-03T21:50:00.001+08:00

& I really don't know what to do

-

2009-08-02T20:02:00.000+08:00

Someday we'll look back and say
It wasn't just a dream

If only tears were laughter

2009-08-01T20:57:00.001+08:00

Here without you baby

hciso; thank you for the music ❤

2009-07-31T22:33:00.002+08:00

What about us
What about everything we've been through
I've gotta leave but I'll miss you, hciso :(

D:

2009-07-29T23:20:00.001+08:00

That's your problem.

/

2009-07-27T19:34:00.001+08:00

It's about being stupid together :)

Doing homework with friends in the reading room ftw :)

2009-07-25T21:38:00.003+08:00

We didn't go through all these just to have an ending like this
We didn't come thus far, just to fail at the last moment

Fatigue, sums up the day.

Where did I go wrong

2009-07-23T21:00:00.002+08:00

So am I supposed to give up
When it was what I had been fighting for
When I'm already this close

This is just not right
I can't be missing it just because I'm 0.01% away
So what am I supposed to do now

Failure

2009-07-22T16:41:00.001+08:00

They say failures were just milestones to success,
Then this journey must have been way too long.

Damn it

2009-07-19T17:49:00.001+08:00

Can broken friendship ever be mended?

Even tolerance has a limit

2009-07-12T22:29:00.002+08:00

From young we were taught to admit our own mistakes
But yet
Adults don't admit their own mistake, do they?

Who are you?
To question me, to threaten me, to poke your nose in everything I do.
You're nothing

Week 1 :)

2009-07-11T00:14:00.003+08:00

This week is extremely slack but yet boring because strings is cancelled.

No point being friendly to disgusting people

2009-07-04T20:24:00.001+08:00

Courage is not the absence of fear
But rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear

Faith, Fear.

2009-07-03T10:00:00.001+08:00

One blocks his dreams when he allows his fear to grow larger than his faith.

Whatever

2009-07-02T16:36:00.001+08:00

Someone once said
"Don't get led by your fear"

Don't get it

2009-07-01T19:45:00.002+08:00

Why do I feel so suppressed
What exactly, am I afraid of

Enough of this fear
Enough of putting up with 'em

There's no next step, when there's no destination.

2009-06-30T12:35:00.002+08:00

Hey My Girl 이대로 널 품안에 담고 싶어

Day 0

2009-06-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

Wishing upon a wishing star
You

Confidence, gone.

2009-06-27T23:10:00.001+08:00

Never did felt so weak before;
Time to buck up.

Someone once said; Winning isn't everything, it's the only thing.

2009-06-23T23:55:00.003+08:00

ohman violas + alvin came my house to watch movie today :) and alvin is epic fail lah come watch horror movie then dun dare look at screen. Then after that went lunch at westmall, and i went to daniel house to do project work and play(with gk). Emphasis on the latter ;D

But you forgot
I don't lose

Don't tell me the sky is the limit, when there're footsteps on the moon.

2009-06-22T23:34:00.006+08:00

OMG sizzling :D Wondergirls nobody dance

Nobody but you! :D

Like a flash, yet kept me thinking.

2009-06-18T23:17:00.002+08:00

It's late but I'll still try my best to give a summary of what happened from tues till today. Let me start of with tues.

First day of class chalet. Woke up in super excited mood and asked me dad to fetch me to westmall. Met up with gk and took mrt all the way to pasir ris, trust me it's insane. So when we reach pasir ris shaun is alr there, we went lunch at the food court inside white sand shopping mall. Then went to the basement to hunt for bubbletea stall, found none and ended up buying mcflurry at macs. Then walked to downtown east. When we reach there no one has arrived yet, so decided to camp there for a while until kkj called me and told me he's at the taxi stand with bbq food. So we walked through this row of shops beside ehub and met up with him and walked back, yuhao joined us on the way. When we're back most people have alr arrived, including mrtan. So went to check into the chalet, dumped our stuff there. It's a nice place though, like a 2 room flat with kitchen and big living room plus balcony. So we went for our first activity - SOCCER! Omg lah everytime dribble until right in front of goalkeeper then mliew pop up and block my shots. Then we attempted to play touch rugby but it was a failure. Some people went beach to swim while me and some others stayed onshore and trained soccer receiving. Then we went to ehub ntuc to buy drink - SAVE MONEY. And some of us went to arcade to watch and see but not play. I saw my watch and realised it's almost time for bbq, so we went back. And attempted to light the fire and start bbqing, although I admit that I'm a slacker at this part, coz I dont know how to bbq! Only eat lah! Meanwhile some of us attempted Bicycle-Go-Kart at the carpark. It was a total joke coz both ziyan and yuhao fell from the bike, and only for the both of them did we shout DONT FALL. Next we attempted frisbee with paper plates, and mrfong came too! He bought icecream for us heh! After the bbq we went back to eat the ice cream. I didnt sleep throughout the night, was playing bridge ( more of watching and constantly checking my hp to see how much battery do I have left ) and truthordare - Im still laughing at yuhao's chicken dance and shaun's chicken dance remix. We continued till like 5am and went to macs for breakfast. After that we went back to the chalet and realised most ppls have alr left. So gk, shaun, thuan and I decided to go and watch dragmetohell at plazasing. The movie is like 2 hours away so we went to arcade and get pwned at daytona, followed by camping at carls jr while telling stories to scare ourselves. Then it was the movie, covered my ear throughout haha! It was more of a comedy ba...Then went to this sushi place when Im not hungry so ate very little. And took mrt back home. Reached home at like 5pm and wanted to watch bleach but ended up falling asleep halfway. I decided to go and sleep instead, and it was like all the way till this morning at 10am+ (not including dinner which I woke up eat and sleep again). Then I realised I missed viola sectionals which is supposed to start at 9am - sorry violists! Slacked and watched thehauntingofconnecticut until now, super boring life eh! Im currently having the just-had-fun-and-want-to-have-more-but-sad-that-I-cant feeling haha. Somehow I just have this very special bond to downtown east lah. The atmosphere there is just different. It's like, when I stepped into it, there's no worry, and I can throw everything aside, just play :) Well, we'll be here again in december. Till then...

So I asked myself
Is this real?

arghhh!

2009-06-15T22:56:00.002+08:00

Damn.
My good mood just got destroyed. Was highing about tomorrow's class chalet and someone came into my room and scolded me for 5 minutes abt hair. Can't stand it. Seriously lah, go outside and have a look. If you call this unacceptable then every single student in the world should get demerit points. Forget it, don't know how many times i've said this but yet again, you cannot win me.

Pissed, again.

hciso june outing!

2009-06-12T11:56:00.002+08:00

Yesterdays was our strings outing. It all started with violas sectionals in the morning, dr yeo conducted it :D Next we took the bus/mrt down to vivo and met up with the others. After some discussion *ahem*, decided to go to burger king to eat. Then went to sentosa by monorail, unpacked and split team for beach soccer. I thought beach soccer is easy but wth, totally OPPOSITE lah. Hot sand, no shoes, game started for like 10s and my toe was kicked by mok, injured -.- super sian lah wth. Then after that the group split up and some of us played soccer in the pavilion. Later in the evening was cycling, the best part of the whole outing. Cycled from one end to the other and back. Then went to vivo to see sunset but dun hv any. Went dinner at food court, then went to toys"r"us - Second best part of the outing, especially plush toys section :] After then we went home and I fell asleep after lying on the bed for a short while.

Time will tell,
cn

Six billion people in this world, when all I need is one.

2009-06-08T00:23:00.002+08:00

Ohwell :] Attempted to do homework, ended up *ahem*. Nevermind, still early. Anyways, english lesson tomorrow at 10. Then will be going soccer and buying logistics for chalet with cmc! Very sian at home also lah...Oh ya dota-ed today and was quite on-form ;D Okay just another boring day at home, till next time!

It's not my fault that I fell for you, because you tripped me :]
cn

Sectionals + Maple + Dota

2009-06-07T01:12:00.002+08:00

Woke up early today to conduct violas sectionals! Ohman Im like super impressed with the efficiency of our sectionals today. Everyone is focused and stopped right when I stopped. Hardly any talking or self-practising in between. Well, had alot of fun *cough* too ;D Sectionals don't have to be all boring and sian, if everyone is cooperative, efficiency is high, the more fun it is. More breaks in between, earlier release. It's a two way thing.

Next is maple, the 2x time slot today, totally pia-ed my dit from lvl 30-34. And finally dota. First time play after 6 months. Playing with laptop that has a widescreen type of monitor. My view is like totally restricted. And a mouse that is overly sensitive. But didnt really say anything coz I alr expected to screw up. But somehow, I feel that, some people just don't understand that it's just a game, and get all worked up over it. I'm totally disgusted.

Silence is our best form of communication,
cn

谁叫你还搞不清楚我跟你的差别 ;D

2009-06-05T23:05:00.002+08:00

Argh it's holidays and I should stop thinking about school for goodness sake >< It's only the first week and it feels like the last week alr zzz...went viola lesson in the afternoon, came home and ATTEMPTED to do work but failed badly. Watched hot shot for like 2 hours and again went back to ATTEMPT to do work but failed again. It's holidays mannn, it's only normal for my efficiency to be low.

Pissed,
cn

Skills can never be perfectly replaced by confidence

2009-06-04T23:16:00.002+08:00

Finally blogging after geog exams ;D Neglected my blog to maple :x ohwell, these 2 weeks are full of ups and downs. And my last concert in HCISO; Amore D'Estate - Summer Love. Buy tix from me :] Hols are getting boring, sick of poking mushrooms in front of my comp man. But well, what else can I do.

You're weak ;]
cn

We Love Geog Geog ;D

2009-05-23T23:15:00.002+08:00

Omgomg geog exam geog exam. Super scared + excited + anxious. Afterall it's an exam :] And after monday it would be -This Shall Be Revealed On Monday-. Seriously man, Im kinda motivated by the thought that the end(at least for now) is so near ;D

One night the moon asked me
"Why do you stay if she makes you cry"
And I told the moon
"Could you ever leave your sky?"

cn

Cuz I Believe ;D

2009-05-21T21:55:00.002+08:00

Geog exam next monday :] :] :] C6 for last geog test lorh zzz. Ah forget it, I better not let it happen again.
This time, there will be no regrets.
Just came to realise that I'm super tired nowadays, fell asleep while doing work for the previous few days...Okay so here's what happened. I was doing homework and I felt tired, so I told myself "Aiya sleep for 5 minutes lah", and when I woke up I realised 1 hour has passed haha -.-

You were there when I was down :]
cn

Distance

2009-05-18T22:15:00.009+08:00

Crazy over hot shot now, totally ;D
Tomorrow - Dance performance;
Wednesday - CSM!

Beyond one's reach,
cn

Sometimes

2009-05-15T22:21:00.002+08:00

Tests over. Somehow, screwed up.

你别在这睡
你怎么哭着脸
谁叫你还搞不清楚
我跟你的差别
Yeah 我是 superman

cn

You're my superwoman ;D

2009-05-09T23:09:00.003+08:00

Once in a lifetime
Means there's no second chance
So I believe that you and me
Should grab it while we can :]

Well, totally slacked off yesterday. Because I was damn high that I survived the 5 tests week ;D Even though there's 2 more this coming week, and 1 exam in a few weeks time. Woke up late today, went to have breakfast out, then do homework do homework...and got pissed while doing maths ><

Nothing without you,
cn

Back on the starting line

2009-05-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

There's 5 tests next week. I'm in the dumps now, but I've got to pick myself up, coz it's not a choice anymore. Today was quite wasted, other than little things that lightened up my day. Well, because no one bothered to inform me that IHC tests will only be based on 2 topics, which was being conveyed when I was away from class at syf. Forget it, I just have to work even harder tomorrow.

It's when things seem worst, that you must not quit.

cn

HCISO, you'll always be my number one :]

2009-04-30T22:56:00.003+08:00

Finally
Back on the starting line ;D
Smiling at my opponents confidently
When I fall
I don't crawl
I stand up
& start sprinting again
A very big thank you to those
Who comforted me
Who talked sense into me last night

Looking back
This fall was entirely worth
Because through this fall
I could see the passion in every single member, really
Come to think of it
This award brought out the passion in us
And lastly, guys
We've done great
HCISO, you'll always be my number one ♥

cn

♥ HCISO, I'm always proud of you.

2009-04-29T21:24:00.002+08:00

All the efforts we put in
All the sacrifices we made
Today, at 4pm
For that few seconds
When those words came out of the mc's lips
I thought everything was over
My heart sank so deep
My eyes were practically flooded
But after a while of being in the state of
Nothing-ness
I've woken up
We achieved something
Or rather
Everything
How far we go
Will not be determined by what is written
On that piece of paper
Because music is more than any words or medals can describe
That, is the music we play
I never did doubt you, HCISO

Doesn't even matter
What they deem us as
Because deep inside me I know
We're so good
HCISO, I'm always proud of you ♥

cn

Heartbeat

2009-04-25T22:09:00.002+08:00

Syf Syf Syf Syf Syf ;D

Once upon a time
There lived a princess
In this tall castle
In the middle of a dark fortress
Her prince fought his way through
And came to her door
Just to realise that
He doesn't have the courage to knock on it

Just watch
cn

ohmygosh can I go and sleep like, now?

2009-04-24T22:11:00.001+08:00

A week full of ups and downs
More than words can describe
Sometimes
Just have myself to blame

Hey, we're here to win ;D
cn

Sometimes, I just can't help but to ask myself why.

2009-04-11T23:14:00.003+08:00

Went to watch the chinese debate finals today. Then went home and get sian in front of the comp. But anw found this song while running through my list =D by westlife.

Why do I love you
Dont even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue
Love you like I do
Why do I love you like I do

It's here, the last 100m ;D
cn

Someday, I will.

2009-04-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

GOOD FRIDAY :D
First time in term 2 can feel abit slack... quite fun lah even though I camped at home the entire day. And racing cars fever is back...gallardo superleggera & reventon <3 Nothing much to blog about though...This week was a fast one~!

Because at the finishing line, she's right there waiting.
cn

Just a little too tired

2009-04-03T22:56:00.002+08:00

It has only been two weeks
But it feels like
One entire term has passed
It's really tough
I'm worn out by now
But I didn't say that
I would ever give up

You have no idea, girl. No idea how much you can change me.
cn

Rashness, the greatest killer.

2009-03-29T19:10:00.003+08:00

Too many things happened today
That I don't wish to pen down
I was forced
To reveal the mature side of me
Which I didn't want to
Because I'm a kid afterall
My life, family, friends are all in a mess
So who is there
For me to fall back on
Heart
Please show me the way

Down, really.
cn

Why are you so hard to forget

2009-03-28T19:49:00.002+08:00

The first week of school is over, but I'm already this tired. Tell me, how do I pull through another 9 weeks. But I've already came so far, I'll never give up ;] I have to admit, I'm facing the post-holidays blues. Came home after strings today to chiong the many powerpoint presentations that I have to do...until now...not even half completed. Napfa on monday, I'm very scared of it lah! I thought it would be mid april or something. I'm unprepared. Ahh...troubled ><

I know you don't think that I'm trying
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Because girl
I know I'll never find someone like you again
Inside my mind
I told myself it's time to let go
But my heart replied
That's impossible

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh term 2 is much busier than term 1!

Even under the hot Sun; With you, it just feels so right.
cn

HCISO, you make me so proud ;]

2009-03-22T16:01:00.002+08:00

3Days2Nights Camp
Founders Day Performance
Gala Dinner
They made me felt so much.

I'll start with the camp first.

Day 1
Viola lesson & sectionals (where we discussed where we want to go for viola outing). I wanted sentosa sentosa sentosa but realised there isn't enough time for it >< I still can't get over that place lah! So in the end we decided to go CSC! The war game was quite fun, didn't chiong at first. But after seeing my teamates die one by one, I decided to just go and fight until I die. Next is the amazing race! The most significant station, to me at least, is the finding-marbles-in-dark-room game. Took turns to be blindfolded&instructor with voon. When you can't see, all that you can believe in, is the voice of your friend.

Night 1
Watched the simpsons first. Wasn't exactly engrossed, for one simple reason - it's a cartoon. Next was orphanage. The setting of the story was quite eerie, but the movie itself wasn't exactly scary. What creeps me the most is the plot :x Then it was bedtime, in which alvin claimed that I hugged or kicked or don't-know-what him.

Day 2
Practice in the morning. Then the viola outing - bowling! I was quite irritated coz my shots keep going into the gutter. It at the last 2 sets then someone told me I was holding the ball the wrong way. 2nd lowest on the score card with a score that shall-not-be-revealed ;D Was having fun sabo-ing zicong during the game though. Later in the afternoon was practice too!

Night 2
Water bombs! Was very sian because the venue very hard to backstab...Next was birthday party which was quite fun. Got cakes + sweetdrinks + games. Then comes bedtime! Had a heart to heart talk with zhaohong, chaychoong, jason about songs, people and stuff before sleeping.

Day 3
Rehearsals for founders day performance. Went soccer with manlok, gary, haomeng, kaishin after camp breaks.

Next is founders day performance + gala dinner!
After the performance, seniors came to tell us that they're proud of us. Initially I wasn't so confident, but after hearing what they said, I think, we can make it ;] The dinner was super fun too, other than people like alvin going around taking unglam photos of people.

Sec4 Term1!
I think 2009 Sec4 Term1 was quite a nice term for me. Term1 is normally the term where my msg never fails to go beyond 3. But this time it's different, I can't explain it too. There's just this, unknown drive pushing me always. And in music, still managed to do quite well I guess. Sports still okay ba...But recreation wise still a failure haha. I just can't find time for my friends/family.

Term2
Okay, I know this is going to be a tough term, with syf closing in too. I don't want to flunk this term. I just hope that this determination&drive don't leave me suddenly. Here it comes ;] It's my last year here in high school, I'll make it count ;D

I was so afraid to lose you that I don't even dare to try&talk to you,
cn

But if I let you go

2009-03-10T21:27:00.002+08:00

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find

The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know if I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

Just found this super nice song by westlife today lah! ;]

♥ You
cn

Ah.

2009-03-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

Gosh. Austin came over today. Went bball tennis then jp. Supposed to go soccer at 5 with daniel but it rained. Super pissed lah! Everytime want play soccer then rain.

The greatest distance on Earth is not from north to south
It's when I am beside you and you do not know that I love you

Ah desperate for soccer le. Hope it doesn't rain when I want to play soccer next time zzz...

You are my life now,
cn